SUUUUURPRISEEEEEEE!

     Life is full of surprises. It can be a good one, but also can be bad.
     Guess who is back to school? Surprise!! It's ME! Yay (yes, of course this is sarcastic "yay").
     Well...at least I had ten months of great experience as a nurse. I LOOOOOVE being a nurse. Simply loved what I did. Due to some simple complicated reasons, I quit my dream job and went back to school. (and yes, it was simple reason but also complicated.)
     Now, I am searching what's next.
     It's like all the sudden I became a child all over again. When I was younger, I dreamed of being a doctor, a barber, a chef, an artist, a traveler, and...hmmmm...Actually that's about it. I didn't dream too big, huh. As I have so much free time now, I have been thinking going school for massage therapist, professional photographer, or culinary art. I even think of my future restaurant name, settings, and everything. lol..was also thinking to open a restaurant back home then if I go back.
     Just a lot of thoughts and ideas popping up in my mind lately. Thoughts of going back home to be a nurse, going another country, volunteering somewhere in this world, studying for another major, etc etc. There are so much that I can do or I want to do. That's why it's hard. I have problems of choosing stuff I guess. Sometimes, I wish what future looked like. But, only He knows.
     Anyhoo, I do have my one clear and practical goal in my many ridiculous thoughts--go for grad school.
     Initially, my mind wasn't set for grad school after I quit my job because I did want to have more experience first. Now, going to grad school is a must. One professor from nursing school told me that education is never a waste. True that. Thinking of more opportunities and experiences after getting the grad degree, I am more determined now.
    It might sounds unreal, but I am kinda thankful for this free time to ponder about my life, despite how much disappointment along the road.
    After all, God has everything in control. :)