Senioritis

     It has been almost half year since my last update. Sometimes, I drag.
     Just can't believe that my last semester of nursing school is getting closer and closer to the end. Only 20 days. Guys, only 3 more weeks!
     I think nursing school is the toughest thing that I have done in my life so far. Does it sound ridiculous? It's not med school. However, nursing school apparently is not that easy. I don't think my family or my relatives back home will ever understand how hard nursing school is in this country. It should be tough, because we are dealing with lives. Back home, nursing is totally different. It's way easier. Oh well, and it's in Chinese. I think that makes it WAY easier. Sometimes, I really hate to use the language barrier as an excuse for not doing great on the exams. But guess what? It really matters. Life is full of dilemmas, isn't it? And who says that life is easy? Everybody has his/her ups and downs. My English isn't perfect, still. It frustrates me sometimes, especially in the hospitals. But, I am very glad that I am able to understand or express better than before. Nursing school is completely another new language to me. Seriously, I am embarrassed to say that I didn't even know what "diarrhea" and "nausea" mean in English and I never ever memorized them two years ago. If they are in people's own language, a five-year-old kid will know what they mean. I couldn't memorize them until my friend helped me with drawing. In the past two years, I have learned a lot, a lot. BUT, it's never enough. Or, there is way too much to learn. Life is a learning process, isn't it?
     So I had my graduation picture taken. Clinicals are over. No more white scrubs and white shoes. Only two more finals and some homework before graduation. Unbelievable. Truly. Sometimes, I do feel dumb when I realize that I am probably the only Chinese nursing student in the hospital while my ethnic group people are doctors. But, thinking of how far I have come, it's just an unbelievable thing. God is so good. I don't think I can survive this two years without Him. Truly. How many times that I prayed for those hard times and how many times he answered. He is there, guys. You just need to believe.
     I don't think I am quite ready to become a nurse, but I believe that I will be when the time comes. Right now, I am just having serious disease--senioritis. I think it's very contagious.The only prescription is graduation.
     It was a tough week this week. Sometimes, things are hard. They become harder if you are emotionally drained. But I am fully recovered now. Bright and shiny. Just ready to graduate and move on.